There are certain things in life that you just can’t control. No matter how hard you try, you’ll always fall short. I consider myself to be a open-minded person who sometimes shows her passionate views a little too strongly. We still live in a society that constantly states “be yourself” but undermines it with a subliminal message about how “you must be yourself in this way”. I am a strong person, and I strive to fight every battle. Luckily, I’ve never faced much heartache or pain in my life and I look for the positives in everything.
I spend much of my time focusing on school and on achieving good grades but my friends will always be on the top of my importance list. I think that sometimes people get lost in their own little world of problems and issues and miss what is around them. An event that happened a few months back sent a shock to my system and the realisation that “other things are going on around you” hit me.
I don’t know who else has experienced this, but there are people in life that you will just ‘click’ with, and these are the people that you have to keep hold of. Its possible to have a soul mate in a non-sensual sense, and you find yourself doing everything you can to make them happy. I was so lucky to find this person so early on in my life and things have sometimes been rocky, but there is true comfort found there for both of us. There isn’t anything that we wouldn’t do for each other, lets be honest here, we’re friendship goals for others;)
2014 has been a weird year for me, but also the best year of my life. I know that’s a really cringy thing to say but it has. This year I learnt that I was stronger than ever, and I’ve had the best support from some truly special people in my life. This year I learnt that it doesn’t matter what people think. I also learnt that people aren’t always what they seem, and for the most part they aren’t it at all. People who you thought would be there for you all through everything aren’t, but its okay, because people change and so do you.
2014 taught me to make the most of every situation and never take any time spent with someone for granted. It taught me to just try my best in everything and as a whole I’m a completely different person to who I was when we entered 2014. We are all about to close a chapter of our lives and that’s one of the scariest things to do, but its worth it when you see the rewards later on.
I’m so thankful that I’ve found the people in my life, and I wouldn’t change them for the world. I know who really matters to me but I also know who I matter to, and it’s the best feeling in the world.
2014 taught me to be there for others, but it also taught me to be there for myself. You can’t keep running yourself into the ground until your brain can’t even function anymore. Someone very close to my heart once said that “accepting help doesn’t undermine your strength, it increases it” and its so very true. At the end of the day you matter just as much as everyone else does, and its okay to put yourself first. That doesn’t make you selfish, it makes you human.
on a side note, sorry i’ve been gone so long, i’m back with loads more blog posts in the new year, all my love, sh4nnon1 x